THE TensioN and Transition
I wanted to take people on this journey with me, observing how peaceful they become after spending some time away from the intensity of everyday. It is only whilst looking back at the images I make that I realise there is a lot of sadness and tension involved. Perhaps this happens because of my longing to be relieved from constant activity and the overwhelming feelings that occur from today’s world. In my work I wanted to show a level of intimacy only achieved when the subject trusts your intentions and more importantly, when I trust my own intentions.
Imagine standing on a ball, but you must constantly keep moving to remain balanced. Many of us in the world see life like this. For me, my mind is divided between the motion and energy of urban cities and the tranquil silent woods, that are reachable, but when confronted with the city everyday, become forgotten and hidden.
Stories can be written, memory can’t.
If a picture is a story, then the accumulation of these pictures comes closer to the experiences of a memory, a story without an end.
The struggle between autonomy and dependency is a universal problem.
The friction between fantasies and the realities of relationships can lead to alienation or violence.
(Talking about men) I didn’t believe they were vulnerable and I empowered them in a way that I didn’t acknowledge their fears and feelings.
As we grow older, there’s a self-awareness that see gender as a decision, as something malleable.
I was obsessed by my desire.
I don’t ever want to be susceptible to anyone else’s version of my history.
I don’t ever want to lose the real memory of anyone again.
- Words from Nan Goldin's The Ballard of Sexual Dependency, 1986 -
The only place I feel completely at ease is within a forest, where the trees shield the sky and the world around, and endless nature surrounds me as if it were enchanting the atmosphere.
Life becomes so silent you forget everything you entered with.